Sixteen Candles


I have had the song, Sixteen Candles Chemos, running through my head all week. My 16th, and final, round of chemo is today! When I get home there should be cake and champagne!  Of course I won’t feel like partaking until sometime this weekend, but still.. it should be there. Naturally the only #16 candle I can find is pink (and very big.. sorry) Image

On the home and health front, these last few rounds have kicked my ass. Not enough to require any kind of medical intervention in between visits, just really exhausted. I feel like I am moving through thick mud most of the time.  And my “achy joints” have morphed into some pretty severe bone pain at times. I have one finger on one hand that keeps blistering and peeling.  It was the whole hand last week, steroid cream cleared up 4 digits, but the index finger is being difficult. It is also twice as big as it’s counterpart at the moment and on my surgical side. I’m hoping it’s not a sign of lymphadema, though I only had one lymph node removed.  We’ll see.

On the blog front, I haven’t had a whole lot to say, but I’ve been reading the blogs I follow daily. I see a lot of writing “assignments” or challenges and lots of awards.  I think it would be fun to participate and then I have nothing to say.  Which is not like me at all. I’ll keep reading, though, and maybe inspiration will come.

Today I find out what comes next. I know I will be spending the better part of my summer vacationing in Chernobyl. Other than that, not sure when I see my surgeon to have the port removed or when I start Tamoxifen, what scans I have when, etc. etc.  I have been kind of coasting along during chemo and as long as I am “doing something” I feel okay with this whole cancer business.  Ending chemo feels like a milestone, but for some reason it’s also making me feel a little uneasy.   My genetics appointment is coming up soon. I have very mixed feelings about that. Obviously, it’s important. On the other hand, I’m not ready to hear my whole treatment plan should have been different based on the results or my 20 something daughters have to start making tough decisions about their own future health.   But, for them, my sister and cousins I will go.

While googling 16 Candles I saw this funny. For you Molly Ringwald fans



  1. Susan · June 5, 2012

    Woo hoo congrats on completing this phase of your treatment. It’s all good from here on in 🙂


  2. Sandy · June 5, 2012

    So happy you’re to this point. Can’t wait for you to have cancer completely on your back side. :Hugs


  3. rosepedaler · June 5, 2012

    Congratulations…..I wish you the best. You’ve certainly earned it.


  4. embracingchemo · June 5, 2012

    So happy to hear from you. You have been in my thoughts. Celebrating today with you! You are amazing.


  5. Laura Renegar · June 6, 2012

    Thank God you are at the end of this phase…the road up from this last one can be hard, but you can do it – after all, you have made it this far. Walking thru mud is a great analogy and the bone pain part is something I can relate to because I had horrible bone pain from round one of chemo. It is something that is hard to describe and have someone understand unless they have been through it. I am so sorry you have this going on at all. It just sucks. I must not follow enough blogs cause I haven’t seen challenges or awards but would like to ! Good luck on your sides passing this week and becoming a distant memory. Hang tough as I know you will !


    • mainelyhopeful · June 6, 2012

      It is hard to explain isn’t it? I thought the joint pains I was experiencing earlier were it. Not so much :\


  6. Misifusa · June 6, 2012

    Congrats! So happy you’ve made it…now comes the next chapter…one baby step at a time! You can do this!


  7. gozzygirl · June 6, 2012

    I’m happy for you that this part is over. Your strength is an inspiration to cancer patients following in our footsteps. I hope your meeting with genetics goes well and that radiation doesn’t take too much out of you.


    • mainelyhopeful · June 6, 2012

      Thank you! After chemo, I expect radiation to be a cake walk. We shall see!


  8. bgillen · June 8, 2012

    So glad you are entering the final phase of chemo. Gear up for radiation, it’s not as easy as you think it could be. Positive thoughts and white light heading your way.


  9. tinajuvonen · June 8, 2012

    Congrats on being done with the chemo, it’s such a relief, soon you will be feeling a whole lot better.


  10. tinajuvonen · June 21, 2012

    Congratulations, it is such a relief ….I know xxgood luch


  11. tinajuvonen · June 21, 2012

    or even good luck


  12. sherrysf · July 1, 2012

    That is great news! I am so happy for you and will continue checking in xoxo ~sherry


  13. ellekelly · August 3, 2012

    Dear Mainelyhopeful,
    You are such an inspiration! I couldn’t string words together to type cogent thoughts while in the midst of chemo. You’re amazing! Congratulations for climbing mountains with such grace! Hugs, L.


  14. mynameisgina · August 3, 2012

    You’re a amazing, and an inspriration.


  15. Susan · August 10, 2012

    Congratulations Susan. Finishing is such a great feeling. Thanks for your wonderful post!–Susan


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