I’ve had a few messages lately from people who only know me through this blog. I’ve been MIA. I guess when you start a blog because of a diagnosis like cancer and then disappear people wonder. I know I do and I’m always happy to see posts from the bloggers I follow. I have been reading regularly and commenting a bit, just haven’t had a lot to say, so here goes.
On the cancer front, as far as I know I’m still cancer free. I’ll know more after my upcoming 6 month check, but I don’t anticipate any bad news. I feel pretty good.
As for the rest of my life let’s see. I took a job, hated it, quit and decided to spend my time and cash building up my little business. That’s going really well and keeping me busy. The downside (and reason I took the aforementioned hated job) is the isolation of working at home. I’ve done it for years but didn’t live alone as well. I’m a self admitted home body so I’ve made an effort to get out more. Weekly dinner and drinks with friends. Biweekly breakfast with another friend. Spending time with each of my parents and my husband’s mother each week and as much time with my girls as they can spare. I’ve made two trips to Texas to see my son’s family (it’s their turn to come here!). I’ve joined a group dedicated to helping teen mothers make a good start in life and I belong to another group of ladies who fund raise for local charities. Both fun groups with a lot of really nice ladies. I look forward to the meetings. I help a friend out occasionally with her catering business. Keeping busy.
On the home front, I have been having a lot of work done on the house. I don’t feel the need to move as much as I did at first, but I doubt I will be here forever and why only fix it up to sell? I want to enjoy the results while I’m here. I will admit this winter nearly did me in. I felt tested every damn day for one reason or another (me and every one else, huh?) You would think I’d be happy to see summer but there are too many upcoming anniversaries and I would be happy to sleep through until Fall. June 1st would have been our 29th wedding anniversary, June 6th is the one year anniversary of his death. July 10th is the 2nd anniversary of my sister’s death but I never marked the first in any significant way.I was still reeling from losing my husband. I will officially be through all the “firsts” though. I’ll let you know if that makes it any easier.
My mom and I were buying flowers the other day. I loaded up on baskets and flats. We were chatting back and forth and talking about what we should get for the cemetery. She picked something for my sister and I picked something for my husband. And it felt normal, which made me feel slightly sick to my stomach.
I’ve been slipped the senior discount a few times. I see the double takes and the questioning looks and I silently dare them to ask. One kid was all of 17 and when I said “don’t be fooled by the hair” he laughed and I was happy to pay full price. When they don’t ask and give me the discount I say nothing. One woman asked me the other day and it was the first time I was offended. She was at least my age and had about a half inch of gray roots showing. I wanted to ask if she thought that bad dye job was fooling anyone. I’m not giving in and dying my hair but I think I will let it grow long and wild. I’m hoping for the aging hippie look. I’ll probably end up with more of a crone vibe.
This post is all over the place, much like my mind these days. Sorry.
How am I doing? I’m doing well, finding my footing. Thanks for asking. How are you doing?