I haven’t written for a while. I think my last blog mentions hitting the halfway mark of my chemotherapy. Since then I have passed another halfway milestone. I’ve completed 6 of the 12 Taxol treatments. While I have been saying all along that side effects are not mandatory and I had no intention of volunteering for any, I’ve kind of hit a bump in the road . And yes it feels as big as the obnoxious sign mid-sentence. Today was the first day in a week I’ve left the house aside from my weekly cocktails with the girls. By cocktails I mean
poison chemotherapy being pumped directly into my chest and by the girls I mean Dr. T and the awesome nurses at the center. In the way of drinking pals I could probably do worse. However the cocktails suck and this is one major ass hangover. I still have no nausea or neuropathy. I have daily nosebleeds and numbness of my fingers that I am assured is not neuropathy because I can “shake it off”. However it is happening more and more frequently. My hair continues to grow and is about 1/2 inch long now and starting to curl. Still no sign of eyelashes. I kind of miss em but in the grand scheme of things.. meh. What has left me housebound for a week is just being plain exhausted. I swear I can feel my marrow moving thick and sluggish through my bones and my joints ache nearly constantly. I have muscle pains and headaches but they come and go. Most of the time I feel like I am moving through mud. I have some energy in the morning, so I do whatever computer work I have waiting, clean the house a bit and exercise (and yes, remaining upright counts as exercise some days), shower, eat lunch and then at the time that I would be heading into town with whatever errands I have I end up lying down for “just a minute”. If I’m lucky I wake up before the mister returns from work 5 hours later. I’m still waking up at 4 or 5 a.m. but instead of waking up to those crazy dreams I blogged about earlier, I’m up thinking about all the things I want to accomplish, but just can’t seem to get done. It will all get done but unfortunately I don’t think I will be contributing too much to the effort and I hate that. The effects of this treatment really are cumulative and I’ve gone from one day of recovery with the first one to not leaving the house for a week with the 6th. This wasn’t part of my plan. I was going to breeze through it. I guess it’s time for a new plan. This week I will be content to get in some pansies. If that’s all I end up planting this year, that’s enough.
Since I’ve been on house arrest I decided to catch up on some independent films I missed. Can I just say.. Tree of Life.. what? This is a movie you can nap through and really, it doesn’t matter. For real.
I’ve seen a few other films but they were fairly underwhelming and hardly worth a mention.
In other news.. coupons. Who doesn’t love a good coupon? Last week I came across 4.00 off Claritin but I didn’t need any and am not sure how long I will be taking them so I very kindly left two coupons on top of the boxes for someone to use. This week I noticed it was on sale and wouldn’t you know I’ve been using it daily. I thought about those coupons I had left. On a hunch I looked and they were still there. A week later! There are two things that make this worthy of a mention. First.. no one bought Claritin in a week? Or if they did they ignored the savings? Two.. and this kind of grossed me out.. that shelf wasn’t touched in a week. This is an allergy med in the pharmacy department and no one dusted? Really? In a whole week? That shouldn’t surprise me, but it does. I wonder what other things have been deposited on those shelves and left to fester. *shudder*.
My thoughts have been all over the place in this post, but I want to mention a little girl in our community who lost her battle with cancer this week. She was six years old and had faced many challenges since her birth. I didn’t know her, but I understand she loved all that was pink, purple and princess related. If you pray, please send up a prayer for little Megan and her family. Balloons optional.