So is this supposed to make me a better person?

I read these blogs by cancer survivors and other women just starting out on their own journey as I am and it seems like there is so much hope and inspiration I want to just soak it up like a sponge. There is plenty of sadness too and while I don’t turn away from that.. I just don’t claim it as mine.  I am not particularly religious, though I do consider myself spiritual. I have a faith in God that never waivered even as I walked away from my childhood church and I know I am being prayed for by people with much greater faith than my own and I am grateful for that. Maybe this is my test?  Maybe I am supposed to learn patience?  I have no idea …but today I would have been happy to learn where the item I needed to ship out was after promising it would go today. I wish I hadn’t had a small melt down and decided to shut down my business if I was going to have to ask for help finding things (I didn’t, but the possibility remains)  I would love to be this always calm and serene patient not causing any trouble to those around me, soft spoken and sweet and always thankful.   But get real.. I had a lumpectomy, not a lobotomy.

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4 comments

  1. Stacey · December 30, 2011

    Snort. Giggle.

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  2. Stacey · December 30, 2011

    But in the nicest possible most respectful way. Btw, can’t get on the chain……

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  3. Jean · December 30, 2011

    Do you find your blog to be therapeutic?

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  4. Cindy's Cancers · January 1, 2012

    Everyone should keep a blog when they have to deal with any life changing event…I know when I read what I wrote it makes me look at things from another direction. I hope this is a way that you can process everything that happens. I for one like to read what you have to say. You go girl!!!
    cin

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