50/50

Not the movie, though I did end up seeing that and it was okay. Not the tear jerker I expected. Or maybe I’ve toughened up over the last few months. Could be. What I’m talking about are my odds of finding the write right word when I’m trying to get a thought out. I’ve always had a way with backward talking (I’m the only person I know with myface and spacebook accounts) but I always catch myself as the wrong word is slipping out. Lately who the hell knows what I’ve been babbling about?  Chemo brain?  I’m not sure if that’s even a real thing (as in medically acknowledged – trust me, I know it’s real!)  or an urban legend.   Another good term  is brain fog.  I started another blog and I’m not sure why. I got as far as naming it. Now I have to keep checking to make sure I’m in this one when I post something.  I think I was going to blog about ebay.  It’s becoming a pita to have to keep switching over and that one remains blank.  I could probably combine them, but that would take effort. Bah.  I’ll get to it.  In the meantime it’s taking me all day to accomplish the smallest thing. Like laundry. Reading is nearly impossible and watching a television program sometimes takes more than one time through if I care enough to follow the storyline.   Today I grocery shopped and was quite impressed that I remembered (almost) everything and with no list!  Then I realized I left the house with no eyebrows. FML.

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12 comments

  1. brennagrimes · February 16, 2012

    I could never, ever go grocery shopping without a list. I’d just wonder around for hours.

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  2. Carina · February 16, 2012

    Chemo brain, I will be writing about this subject. It is real. I have it too.

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  3. Carina · February 16, 2012

    Oh yeah, I’ve seen the movie. I did not shed a tear. A good movie but maybe not the one I would pay $9 for in the theater. Good for him not accepting “her” back. He does not need unsupporting people in his life.

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  4. sarenaperez · February 16, 2012

    I actually saw the movie before I even knew it was a possibility I could have cancer and really appreciated the performance of Joseph Gordon-Levitt. I had a new appreciation for the characters a few months later when I at 32 was diagnosed with cancer and also given a “50/50” diagnosis. I also can understand the frustration of trying to find the words you want to use, but they just don’t come. That is most definitely chemo brain! I suffer from the same malady as well and sometimes some funny substitutions will come out. I was trying to put my dog in his crate the other day and ended up asking my mom where the “dog box” was. It made both of us laugh.

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  5. rachturner · February 16, 2012

    Chemo brain is definitely real, although my doc attributes the “mild” loss of cognitive function to the stress of having cancer and not the chemo itself. I’m doing the exact same thing you are doing – mixing my words up. I’ll type their instead of there and I know the difference. Or meat instead of meet – this has happened at work! There are numerous words that I’m getting turned around in my typing, although I can’t think of them all right now due to chemo brain. 🙂

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  6. recipeforwings · February 16, 2012

    🙂 This made me smile. I know the feeling!

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  7. suzeq740 · February 18, 2012

    Hey sweetie! I’ve heard the word chemo brain too… I dont know if its real or not.. I heard from the nurse that did my preop paperwork for my lumpectomy She had stage three cancer and was cancer free like 10 yrs but still suffered from “chemo brain”. I dont know what your other post is, and I dont know you all that well……………. what I do know is this. We are at WAR! And whatever you have to do ( with another blog) or watching a tv show two times.. you know what.. who cares… watch it 12 times if you need to. And you know what else… as far as not wearing eyebrows to the grocery store.. Fuck em if they cant take a joke ( sorry about the language.. but it was appropriate for the occassion 🙂 Love you

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    • Misifusa · February 21, 2012

      I am 10 years since diagnosis and still have chemo brain so your nurse was right. 🙂

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  8. The martini effect · February 19, 2012

    Spacebook – love it! It could catch on. And yes, Chemo-brain is definitely real. Good luck with your treatment and recovery.

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  9. bgillen · February 19, 2012

    We call them my “cerebellum bombulum” moments. (Brain fart in Latin.)

    They are real. I’ve had chemo brain since 2006. It doesn’t get much better, but you do get a little clearer.

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  10. dropjohn · February 21, 2012

    Yes, “chemo brain” is a medically acknowledged condition. And, yes, I have it.

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  11. Misifusa · February 21, 2012

    I have it too…1o years later…not much better…but I’m still here! 🙂

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