I don’t know why now or why I can’t seem to stay off the cancer sites or stop reading the reams of materials I have. Maybe because my next treatment is coming up and I have a feeling I won’t be as lucky this time around. I keep hearing how the effects are cumulative and recovery time between each is harder as time goes on. I think I’ll give myself the rest of the day to dwell and then I’m over it. Until next time.
I’ve felt dread with upcoming chemo treatments, too, but what I’ve found is that I can’t predict how each will affect me. Some are worse than I expected, some are easier. And luckily, the side effects haven’t all hit me at once. I’ll have some after some treatments and different ones after others. When I feel overwhelmed, I try to breathe and center and just be. And do something nice for myself. Something I enjoy and see as a treat. When I can experience this journey with no expectations, that opens something in me – and things are not as hard. You’re not alone. Sending you good thoughts and vibes and mojo!
Thanks. The words of experience help 🙂
Wishing you lots of strength! Thinking about you, and sending you positive vibes all the way from Cape Town. xox